….it can’t get no worse!”
Love that line, kids. In case you don’t know, that’s from “Getting Better” off Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Club Band. It tickles me to no end every time I hear it. There’s Paul being…well, Paul, all optimistic and hopeful, “It’s getting better all the time!” And then there’s the typical John countering with “It can’t get no worse!” Oh, how I love those boys!
Anyway, I feel like it pretty much sums up things around here right now. As Robert keeps saying, really, we have nowhere to go but up. It does appear things might be getting better for us financially. Several things have happened just in the past day or two that are benefitting us quite a bit. We are going to be able to pay the deposit on the house on the 15th, like we said we would, with no problem whatsoever. I am actually going to be able to go up to Norman next weekend and complete my Christmas shopping and probably be able to buy whatever I want (within reason, obviously; we’re not talking plasma televisions or anything). I will be able to go to Toys R’ Us, buy the kids the rest of the stuff I want for them, go to Petsmart and buy the drinking fountain I’ve been meaning to get the cats for two years now, find some things for Robert and possibly treat myself to a little something. I am probably going to take myself to a movie while I’m at it — make a real day of it. (This is next Sunday, by the way, so if anyone wants to join me, give me a holler.) I haven’t had a proper shopping day in I-don’t-know-how-long. It may not sound like much but it’s a big deal to me. I am not a window shopper. Looking at things and not being able to buy them makes me unhappy. And for so long now, so long, I have had to do more looking than buying. That probably sounds horribly spoiled, and maybe it is. It just seems like all I’ve done for the past couple of years is look. Pick up ten things and put seven of them back because there’s just no money to get all of it. And I’m not just talking about luxury items. Sometimes it’s been minor items; things people normally toss in the cart and don’t think twice about. It’s just been a constant, “We’ll have to wait on this, that and the other thing and maybe we can get it next time.” So just to be able to go and pick up all the rest of the things I wanted for my kids and still have money to shop for something decent for my husband is going to be heavenly. And if I manage to have enough left over for a little treat for myself that’s just all the better.
Lest anyone think that my optimistic outlook on the future is based solely on one shopping trip I need to clarify that things are looking a bit better for the long-term. The shopping is merely a side effect of the improvements; it’s just that it’s a very large symbol of hope to me, personally, since it represents something I haven’t been able to do in quite some time. Now, are we out of the woods yet? Nope. There are still unanswered questions, things up in the air. We will know more after the first of the year. But some things have finally gone our way and steps have been taken to dig ourselves out of the hole in which we’ve been languishing. I have been fairly pessimistic up till now but I am, finally, allowing myself a glimmer of hope that things are actually going to turn around for us.
We could still use some prayers, good thoughts, or whatever you may be inclined to offer. This house needs to sell as soon as possible (another positive – we are actually going to come away with money in our pockets when all is said and done!) There are still certain things that need to happen, or need to go well in order for us to really prosper. Like I said, we aren’t out of the woods yet. But there is a light at the end of the tunnel — and, for once, I don’t think it’s an oncoming train.