It’s not you, it’s me. Or you.


Do you ever go through a phase where it feels like everyone is ticked off, or at least mildly annoyed, at you? When you are suddenly struck with the impression that a memo has been sent out about you and everyone received it and signed off on it?
I’m having that now.
I don’t think I’m being paranoid but with me you never know. It could all be in my head. Or perhaps everyone is a little grouchy and down now that the holidays are over and the bad weather is really starting to kick in, and I’m picking up on that. All I know for sure is that people suddenly seem a bit testy and/or stonily silent with me when that’s not the norm for them. Whether it’s truly their actions or simply my perceptions I have yet to figure out.
If it is all on me then it becomes rather a vicious cycle. I perceive people as being annoyed with me so I get even more sensitive and overly-analytical of their behavior, which, in turn, makes them appear even more unfriendly toward me when it really may not be their intention.
If it’s NOT just my imagination then WTF, people? I don’t think I’ve been putting my foot in my mouth any more than usual recently. Lighten the hell up. Y’all should be used to me by now.
God. It’s no wonder I’m practically a hermit. I’m obviously not cut out for social interaction.


About msmaryb

I'm a native Californian who lives in Oklahoma. I'm a full-time student, pursuing a Bachelors in Anthropology, following which I hope to attain a Masters in Archaeology. I have three kids, one husband, no pets, and a lot of friends - most of whom live inside my computer. I love to read, write, watch tv (shut up, we can't all be brain surgeons), shop, and travel. I'm trying to set foot in all 50 states before I die. I have 38, so far. I love the Beatles and Maroon 5, and if you think those two things are incongruous, well, they are. But that's me. When I love something, I love it 100%. I don't do anything halfway. I want to know everything there is to know, so I'm trying to cram as much into my brain as I can in the short amount of time I'm allotted in this dimension.

One response »

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s